2018 Recap + Happy New Year

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After all the months of saying time is flying by and Christmas is almost here, it is actually here. Actually it has come and gone and we are now on the final day of the year. Just like that. The end of the year brings a lot of reflection and resolutions. A time to reset and for some, to be hopeful. The last few years haven't been so kind to me, so the new year always fills me with some kind of dread and worry on what the new year could possibly come with. But I am forcing myself to believe that 2019 will be different. Only because, it has to be.

2018 was definitely not the greatest as it started out with not so good news and me having to make a big decision. Or taking a leap of faith. My medical woes had me sick for half the year from all the medication and I had to have yet another procedure, although this one was minor. I didn't get to spend Christmas with my family for the first time in a very long time. One of my closest friends lost her dad this year and he was such a great guy. Trump is still in office.

The flip side of the negatives listed above were:


  • I was still able to fit in some travel and visited 3 countries. The travel included spending time with family which is always a sort of balm
  • I say this every year but my friends really showed up for me this year. I am not one of those who think I am not deserving of them. I deserve the friends I have and I will do the same for them, any way I can.
  • Even though I couldn't spend Christmas with my family. I was able to spend Thanksgiving with my aunty and her family and I spent Christmas with my friends who were kind enough to have me not spend Christmas alone.
  • I had a pseudo medical miracle
  • I started a book blog with my friend and it has been great having an outlet to review and recommend books (www.twonightstands.com and follow us on instagram - @nightstands2)
  • I finally became worthy of being a godmother and I became a godmommy and I love my godbaby to bits. She's such a clever ball of sunshine and cute as can be.
In the coming year:

  • I want to be hopeful. I think I lost the ability to be hopeful long ago but I have also realized that it is exhausting having the weight of waiting for the other shoe to drop.
  • I want to be very intentional with my life. I don't want life to happen to me. I want me to happen to my life. I want to have a say and live life to the fullest to the best of my ability and find happiness everywhere I can
  • Let love in my life (this one is a question mark so don't hold me to it)
  • Find a way to make money off my entertainment blog. I simply don't know how to and I should.
  • HAVE MONEY IN MY BANK ACCOUNT!
  • Continue volunteering and trying to be the best version of myself by listening, learning and actively working on being a better person.
  • Be my greatest cheerleader and not being so hard on myself.
I wish everyone a wonderful year filled with love, light and laughter. The world is a stressful place and adulting remains a scam but I hope we are all able to find pockets of happiness every now and then. May we all be blessings to the people we come across and take the time to be kind to each other. Thank you guys for still reading my blog after all these years and I hope to see you all in the next year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!


Comments

mizchif said…
This made me smile.
Glad you took note of and mentioned the positives.

I think it's really important to be intentional. Because most times we are just going through the motions with this life thing. Like you're trying to reach that next milestone that the world has set for you and you get lost in the mundane and find yourself barely existing, much less living.

Hope all your prayers are answered and this time next year you'll be back here telling us about it (in your special veiled way)

Happy new Year Tayne.
1/01/2019 7:37 AM
Berry Dakara said…
I pray you have a great year.

I've been there - without hope, and seeing life through a blur. Thankfully I came out of it. As long as I have breath, and I know God is real, there is hope.

Happy New Year.
1/01/2019 5:34 PM
neuyogi said…
How does one learn to be intentional with life? Where do you even start? You are such a good godmommy 😉
1/02/2019 9:26 PM
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