Thursday, October 27, 2011


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*Stolen from RG's blog. Thanks!:D

Monday, October 17, 2011

Female Health

Hi Guys. Long time no blog. Thanks to everyone who reached out and checked up on me. I had my surgery last Tuesday and it went well. I am home now on bed rest, healing well so far and OD'ing on pain pills. My mom has practically been an angel since I can't really do much of anything - although I can take a shower myself now and get off the bed without help woot! woot! - I am truly, truly grateful that she could make it back here.

Ok, back to my topic. I just listened to an interview with Guiliana Rancic on her breast cancer. For those of you that may not know, Guiliana has also been public about how difficult it has been for her to conceive after trying IVF twice before, miscarrying on the first try and it not taking on the second try. Her third attempt, her doctor forced her to get a mammogram even though she is just 36 and that's how it was discovered. I just kept thinking that she doesn't deserve this on top of that, so why her?

I think I really took notice of this because I know how many times the word cancer kept being thrown out to me during the time I was doing many tests. In fact, not until 2 days before my surgery was cancer ruled out completely and nothing quite rocks your world like hearing that word. Guiliana as a precaution took the breast cancer gene test a few years ago and didn't test positive for it. Her family also has no history of cancer. I remember when the doctor would try to reassure me and be like for someone your age there's only a 3% chance of cancer but I wasn't reassured because I really feel stuff we eat in this country is messing with our bodies and all these stats are changing.

They tell you not to get a mammogram till 40 but more and more people my age and younger are getting breast cancer or ovarian cancer prognoses. I am probably biased but as if it is not enough that we deal with periods every month (some painful). I feel we have all these other things that we have to deal with that men don't necessarily have to. Everything has a fighting chance if caught early, so I beg you ladies to always listen to your body and see a doctor when you feel something is off. October is Breast Cancer Awareness month but we should be aware always of everything going on in our body. She's probably never going to see this but I wish Guiliana all the best with surgery and radiation, I hope she pulls through and gets that baby that she wants Amen.

I'll stop now before I get preachy :D. Have a great week ahead and P.S If you aren't watching Homeland, you should.


Sunday, October 2, 2011

Life is what happens...

...while you are busy making plans.

A few weeks ago, my concerns included sulking about a boy/figuring out how to make the Adele concert/what to wear to a wedding etc etc. In the last week, my priorities have become trying to keep up with my doctor appointments and figuring out which hospital or specialist I am seeing on that particular day.

A month ago, I started having abdominal pains but I am the kind to brush things off and ride the pain out. It didn't go away and my brother urged me to see a doctor. I went to see the doctor and she shoo'd me away with antibiotics. I dutifully took it and the pain didn't go away and it was becoming worse, so I went back to see another doctor last week Monday. I was actually going to cancel the appointment but went ahead anyways. Well, one abdominal pain complaint led to a week of tests upon tests and surgery next week.

It's all been so surreal because you watch these things on TV and in the movies but never think it'd be you. I am sitting in the doctor's office and watching her mouth move as she is listing things and all I can wonder is if she is really talking to me.(Why are doctors always so cheerful regardless of what news they are breaking to you?). A friend who is a doctor, came along with me on Friday to the doctor and she said, this was the first time she saw how it was to be on the other side and it was just a lot of info.

I am pretty tough when it comes to a lot of things but I am not gonna front and say I am not scared. I am. I go through waves when I am okay and I tell myself everything will be okay but then at random times, I just start crying. I am scared about a lot of things. Surgery itself, my job (i have to be out for 6 weeks), medical costs ( I have insurance and I have spent $500 alone in the last week. I don't know how people without insurance do it) and just stuff. But as always, I am touched by the thoughtfulness of my friends and their offer to help. All I really wanted was my mom and I am so relieved that she is dropping everything and coming next week.

Anyhue, I am keeping the faith and holding it together but I am not ashamed to ask you all for your prayers, because you can never get enough of those. So whether you are the praying kind or not, be kind enough to drop one line for me. I still am not 100% in the clear and this week brings about a bunch of new tests and pre op stuff with one of the surgeons but I am thinking positive. Speaking to friends in the medical field, )I hope I am not being humored) but it doesn't sound so terrible, I guess just to me the lay man it's just a bit scary. If nothing else guys, always listen to your body and if something isn't right, just go check it out.

I can't believe I hated this song when I first heard it.