Sunday, October 2, 2011

Life is what happens...

...while you are busy making plans.

A few weeks ago, my concerns included sulking about a boy/figuring out how to make the Adele concert/what to wear to a wedding etc etc. In the last week, my priorities have become trying to keep up with my doctor appointments and figuring out which hospital or specialist I am seeing on that particular day.

A month ago, I started having abdominal pains but I am the kind to brush things off and ride the pain out. It didn't go away and my brother urged me to see a doctor. I went to see the doctor and she shoo'd me away with antibiotics. I dutifully took it and the pain didn't go away and it was becoming worse, so I went back to see another doctor last week Monday. I was actually going to cancel the appointment but went ahead anyways. Well, one abdominal pain complaint led to a week of tests upon tests and surgery next week.

It's all been so surreal because you watch these things on TV and in the movies but never think it'd be you. I am sitting in the doctor's office and watching her mouth move as she is listing things and all I can wonder is if she is really talking to me.(Why are doctors always so cheerful regardless of what news they are breaking to you?). A friend who is a doctor, came along with me on Friday to the doctor and she said, this was the first time she saw how it was to be on the other side and it was just a lot of info.

I am pretty tough when it comes to a lot of things but I am not gonna front and say I am not scared. I am. I go through waves when I am okay and I tell myself everything will be okay but then at random times, I just start crying. I am scared about a lot of things. Surgery itself, my job (i have to be out for 6 weeks), medical costs ( I have insurance and I have spent $500 alone in the last week. I don't know how people without insurance do it) and just stuff. But as always, I am touched by the thoughtfulness of my friends and their offer to help. All I really wanted was my mom and I am so relieved that she is dropping everything and coming next week.

Anyhue, I am keeping the faith and holding it together but I am not ashamed to ask you all for your prayers, because you can never get enough of those. So whether you are the praying kind or not, be kind enough to drop one line for me. I still am not 100% in the clear and this week brings about a bunch of new tests and pre op stuff with one of the surgeons but I am thinking positive. Speaking to friends in the medical field, )I hope I am not being humored) but it doesn't sound so terrible, I guess just to me the lay man it's just a bit scary. If nothing else guys, always listen to your body and if something isn't right, just go check it out.

I can't believe I hated this song when I first heard it.

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15 comments:

mizchif said...

Awwwwwwwww, tata mummy ya :p

Surgery kwa? What exactly for? That's if i'm allowed to ask.
Will definitely drop a line with the big guy for you.
And yea, us doctors have to be cheerful no matter what type of news we have to break, it's supposed to put the patient at ease and not panic them.

({Big hug})

dosh said...

oh my days! I pray that even through this you see the face of God and that He uses this period to heal not just your body but your soul and relationships too. God bless you and get well soon

TheRustGeek said...

Hang in there..... It all seems to pour out sometimes, but thankfully there's light at the end of this tunnel already....

Vivian said...

Awww love...I will be praying that your surgery goes well. The Lord is your strength and you are healed in Jesus name. It was great seeing you this weekend. I was pleasantly surprised to see you!!!

Madame Sting said...

I'll be praying for u. Pele.

I actually have an OSCE (practical exam) in school on tuesday where we have to break bad news to a patient. We were taught to have an appropriate demeanor, which means not being cheerful but not being down in the dumps either. I guess it depends on where the doctor was trained.

Tega said...

Tayne so sorry to read this...Will be praying for you

Hang in there....x

EDJ said...

I hope that surgery goes smoothly and you feel better soon! Don't worry too much, you will be fine.

Miss Enigma a.k.a UnderCover07 said...

It is well...by His stripes you are healed. Everything's going to go smoothly and full recovery is yours in Jesus name. Just believe in Him.

NAME: Dollf8ce said...

I love you. You are already healed in Jesus name.

kitkat said...

You'll be fine love, just be sure to say your prayers!
I also dnt get why doctors are orever cheerful. I bet even when they tell a dead person's family members that their child/bro didnt make it, they'll be smiling. weirdos!,lol

Mgbeks said...

It is well in Jesus name. I have fired up my prayers into overtime and I believe that after this, we will look back on these days and have plenty testimonies. We will stay strong for you, my dear friend.

LucidLilith said...

Oh my goodness!!! You poor thing. You will be okay. The only things you should be worried about right now is your health. Forget about money, cost, job etc. Get better first. Everything else will fall into place.

Nice Anon said...

By his stripes we are healed. Amen. Just said a prayer for you and I know you'll get well soon enough. Sorry to hear about your ill-health.

HoneyDame said...

Sure thing. Will keep you in my prayers. J.Ralpha is still on the throne

Myne Whitman said...

May the surgery and following recovery go very well IJN. Keep the faith, and your spirits up.