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It hasn't felt like summer because the weather has been cool and there's just been so much rain. But it felt hot today and I welcomed the sun. The days are dragging for me. It's so much effort to drag myself out of bed and when I get to work, I am just clock watching waiting to leave - riveting life, eh? Is anyone doing anything exciting for the summer? I think I am out of preamble material.

Let's random.

I am watching Queen Sugar and this nuisance of a Nova has written a memoir that reveals personal details about her family. She says its to free them from secrets but excuse me? It's akin to outing a person. It's not your place. I'd never write a memoir simply because it involves telling other people's stories. Come to think of it, are people required to get permission before writing memoirs?

The bad part about new person caking is how much TV time it takes away. Even more annoying when you know in a few months, they'll be gone while trusty TV will …

Women and Weight

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I have spoken about this here and there in some of my randoms and it had been swirling in my head but then this just popped up on my ipad and I figured it was a sign to get my thoughts on this topic on here.

It's true. Much like talking about boys/relationships, its almost guaranteed that where women are gathered there will be talk of weight or the new diet fad. We all have our body issues but I now call out my friends who are publicly self deprecating and calling out the body parts they hate. Its not kind to yourself and it makes people uncomfortable. Let it be a private journey to loving yourself. Anyways, I clicked on the link and read the article and I agree with a lot of it

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/06/08/opinion/sunday/women-dieting-wellness.html

"I called this poisonous relationship between a body I was indoctrinated to hate and food I had been taught to fear “wellness.” This was before I could recognize wellness culture for what it was — a dangerous con that seduces …

Musings

Life goes in ebbs and flows. I think  know I am in an ebb. Everything is just not at its best. It makes everything else just a little bit harder.Probably does not help or maybe because I am in an ebb, I chose to do some introspection. It's a weird thing when you can't tell if you are telling yourself harsh truths or being hard on yourself.

Instead of a friday random I figured I'd share some musings.

I wish there was a person who spoke fluent Taynement and could read my mind and know me inside out. They'd know what I needed before I myself knew and it'd come in handy on those times when I can't bring myself to ask for help when I need it.

I find it very dismissive when people say "Life isn't complicated, it's just people who make things complicated". I almost always conclude that they are speaking from a place of privilege. It's unfair to make a person feel like they are whining about something - although I am a hypocrite in this regard bec…

Friday Randoms

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Spring has sprung. Allegedly. Allergy sufferers have started their non stop complaints about allergies and we got some peek into the warmer weather. Like, I stepped out of the house without a jacket. It was glorious. Then the temperature dipped the next day. And even more the day after that. I still refused to wear a jacket. Because WTF? It's officially spring weather and it's time the universe recognizes it. In case you haven't noticed, the year is whizzing by. It's almost half way through April.

Let's random.

It's a tad bit unhealthy but I hate how aware of mortality I am. The constant news of deaths of people in your circle, close to your circle and outside of it, is so depressing. Not that death is a respecter of age but the fact that I have friends who are orphans is such a sobering thought. Because the truth of the matter is "we are at that age". We are more aware of it and it's around us. We all know death is inevitable but it is still a sh…

Abuse

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I am currently overwhelmed and up to my eyeballs in abuse stories. I've always been very riled up whenever I hear of injustices against people. Life is not fair I know but I don't think I will ever understand why life is cruel. But abuse is just another level of cruelty that is not leveled to people by fate but by the hands of another human. I just finished Leaving Neverland and as much as I never believed MJ ever did those things, noone watching can deny the pain of those two men especially Jimmy Safechuck. This is not including R.Kelly's documentary. I have avoided the podcast about Larry Nasser because I don't think I can take it.

I am reading a book where a lady recounts her time as a counselor where she met a 13 year old who had had sex with 5 men and sucked off 10 men and currently had a 32 year old boyfriend who came by to pick her up everyday. Then the other day, a coworker from my former place of work was telling me how one of our coworkers was being beaten so…

Friday Randoms

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You guys, we are about to enter the last month of Q1 2019. I don't think there is any point keeping time anymore since it has decided to do its own thing and just fly by. This winter needs to come and be going. I am tired of being cold and wearing coats. There's supposed to be snow in my neck of the woods tomorrow.

Life has been good so far this year and I am really thankful to God. I know I should be embracing and enjoying it but being the person I am, I am in a heightened state of anxiety waiting for the "balancing" of things going okay at the moment. Sigh. I don't have much to random but I figured it was better for me to blog my little randoms than go ghost another week.

So let's random, shall we?

I hate conflict. I come off as a straight shooter but somewhere along the line, I learned about myself  that as much as I like straight forwardness, I find that I will let a lot of things slide to keep the peace and I know how that sounds but it sounds worse than…

Tightrope

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February is here. Just like that 2019 is flying by like its predecessor. I had a great January. To the point where I am wondering if I should be scared but I am also learning to live in the moment. My post today are lyrics from a song.

Should be well known by now how obsessed I am with The Greatest Showman soundtrack (the movie is available on HBO on demand). It's been over a year and I am still not sick of it. I love every single song on it, some more than others. I didn't like this particular song and while it is a pseudo love song, I like the message it comes with and is in line with the life I want to live.

I want to live a life that is bold and not a scared one. If you live long enough you know that life comes with a lot of downfalls. It's almost inevitable. But that shouldn't be what fuels our decisions. Any decision based on fear, almost always doesn't lead to anything good. I always add the caveat that making a bold decision, doesn't automatically lead …

Friday Randoms

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HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!

This is my first post of the year, shame on me. I know it's kind of late but I hope everyone had a great holiday. I had convinced myself - even though, I didn't have the means - that I would be in Nigeria for the holidays. So imagine my surprise when that absolutely did not happen and I found myself with no Christmas plans. It was my first Christmas since I moved to America (20 years ago), that I did not spend with family but it was still a good one. My friends are truly MVP.

Wishing everyone a fantastic year ahead filled with love and laughter. Lord knows we need it in these weird times we are living in.

Let's random.

When you really think about it, the term almond milk is so weird. Like it is truly from a nut and yet we call it milk. Or the fact that we have creamers that say they are non dairy products.Why?

As a baseline, I think parents will mess up their kids. I think the hope is to not mess them up more than the minimal threshold. Subconscio…

2018 Recap + Happy New Year

After all the months of saying time is flying by and Christmas is almost here, it is actually here. Actually it has come and gone and we are now on the final day of the year. Just like that. The end of the year brings a lot of reflection and resolutions. A time to reset and for some, to be hopeful. The last few years haven't been so kind to me, so the new year always fills me with some kind of dread and worry on what the new year could possibly come with. But I am forcing myself to believe that 2019 will be different. Only because, it has to be.

2018 was definitely not the greatest as it started out with not so good news and me having to make a big decision. Or taking a leap of faith. My medical woes had me sick for half the year from all the medication and I had to have yet another procedure, although this one was minor. I didn't get to spend Christmas with my family for the first time in a very long time. One of my closest friends lost her dad this year and he was such a gre…

Friday Randoms

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Hi. Don't know if you noticed but it's cold out there. Like really cold. And the worst hasn't even hit. Oh, also we are in the last month of the year. As in 2018 is almost over and we are about to enter 2019. And oh yea, "he" is still President. I hate winter. I hate the cold. I'd rather be hot. Please don't come defend the cold with "I love fall fashion". Can't relate. All the whining aside, we thank God we are here, able to feel the cold. How are you getting ready for the holidays? Do you have your Christmas shopping done? Or do you have a tree set up in your home? One of my goals is to be one day grown enough to have a tree in my place of abode. Right after I have an abode, I fully make home. Okay, enough rambling. Let's random.


In some odd sort of way, I think it must be freeing to be selfish. Not worrying or being aware of anything but your orbit. You feel no obligation and that comes with less guilt and less responsibility.

Everyon…