I just got off the phone with my mom. Based on my title, I am sure you know where I am headed with this. She asked me who I was talking to these days and I said noone. Then I asked her why there is all this emphasis on marriage, when in most cases chances are you have the rest of your life to be married and few years to maximize your alone time. I told her how my cousin said I should enjoy the time I have alone. My mom now launched into a it's a lie, they are happy with their spouses why shouldn't you be too?sigh. Anyways, she said her bottom line is that she feels the longer I wait the slimmer the pickings and she doesn't want that for me blah blah blah. I don't know why we have this conversation over and over and over again.
I would love to claim that I am a strong, superwoman immune to her mom's words but I got off the phone, saw a lovey dovey bb status update from one of my friends and I started thinking. My friend had expressed the other day, how she feels that ever since she got engaged there has been a change from her single friends and I told her that it's inevitable when that happens because headspace is different. My mom told me that also, she says you won't listen to me but just watch when all your friends get married. I am beginning to see the change in dynamics which is natural anyways and I wonder if I am ready for it. I am not quite sure if it's a couples world because I am single or if it really is a couple's world. I don't go out much but the few times I do, it seems like it is.
I want to make it clear that this is not a woe is me post, this is just usually how I feel after I talk to my mom. I do want to be married someday, I am definitely not anti-marriage. Granted, I have no fairytales about it but like I told my mom, I can't do anything about it and I just wish I wouldn't be treated like a leper sometimes just because I'm not married or popped out a kid. I think I don't feel so bad because I still yarn with my friends but most of them are in serious relationships which (by God's grace) will be successful, it kinda makes me sad to think that some day it won't be the way it is now. Here's where you will say "but you too you will be married abi?" but nah my brain doesn't operate that way lol. Ok I am done rambling, as usual I couldn't get out all the things I really wanted to say, so as usual make the most sense you can out of what I wrote. Have a wonderful weekend guys!!
PS for anyone wondering, I am 28. :)