I had such high hope for Lent, especially after having a great one last year and learning so much but man. I failed this year. I am ashamed and feel bad :(
It was so weird but for the first time some few weeks ago, I considered divorce. I've always been the person who said divorce is not an option and I'll do my damndest. I think I must have read/heard/watched something that just made me wonder why I would want to feel trapped if it wasnt working. Don't get me wrong, I am not gonna get into it thinking "i could always get a divorce" not at all and I hope I never do. But if I ever get into that situ where I'm so unhappy and I feel trapped, why stay unhappy? I probably shouldn't put that in the atmosphere but my randoms are based on my honest random thoughts.
I think death wouldn't be so awful/able to handle better, if we actually knew what was on the other side. If we knew, I think it'd help knowing theres a chance you'd reunite or not wondering if they made heaven or not or they've faded to nothing and are truly at peace. The uncertainty just seems like you never get closure. We say they are at peace but how do we know for sure? Clearly from this you can tell I have questions about heaven and hell.
A guy friend once told me that for those guys who have been dating a girl for so long then break up then seemingly marry someone soon after, the girl is not new and has probably been in the picture for some time.
Speaking of, I still want someone to explain to me the theory of how people date for years and then as soon as they marry, it all falls to pieces.
"This idea that people need to throw [read: pay for] 'friends' showers needs to end...the drama/bickering that comes from them is just ridiculous. A least if the couple/parents are paying for it then they can do what they want. At the end of the day the celebrants don't even know the nonsense that went down and how 'friends' really feel about stuff #ShadesOverload. It's just ridic" I got this from Repressed One and it made me chuckle cuz there's truth to it. You hear stories. Also, since when have there been baby showers for 2nd babies. Thought it was just for first babies only, no?
Please don't be the woman that doesn't know or understand what their man does for a living or earns his income read: Cynthia Bailey from RHOA
A year and some later, I still have no desire to date. How can we solve my problem?
Sometimes when I watch the news or read things, I wonder why some people deserve the kind of deaths they do. Why does a person deserve to be stabbed and raped to death? Why does someone need to be shot by accident? or in a plane crash? It just seems so cruel. Why them?
It truly is a blessing to wake up and not grumble about work.
Earlier this week, Karyn White a young 22 year old girl who was well known for her empowerment message. She had a tag line that had "I am strong, empowered and classy". It was said that she had a mental illness and commited suicide. Hopefully, this isn't disrespectful but I think is her case of the smoked mirrors. I am sure she was trying to manage her illness as best she could but clearly she was still struggling but to most she appeared to have it under control. It's quite sad and I wish she could have been helped but honestly, you never really know what people are going through.
I am gonna need people I know to slow down on their engagements!
I read something earlier that every 10 years we change and become different people. I mean, our core always stays the same but a lot of ideologies change. I can say for me, it is so true. The difference between who I was at 20 and who I am now is amazing. I'd never have predicted the type of person I am today.
As a Nigerian, is seeing a shrink/psychiatrist something that's a "must" mention to your future husband?
So doctors, explain ulcer to me. My nigerian self was made to believe that ulcer had something to do with not eating and all. In Amrika, I am told its some H Pylori bacteria that can be killed with antibiotics and something to do with lining. Can someone relate the two for me?
"Love isn't constant fireworks like in the movies. It's mostly the silent engine under the hood"
That's all I got. I hope yall have a wonderful and safe weekend and stay blessed! This is my current favorite song.