I couldn't think of a title. I don't even know what to blog about but I just felt the need to blog. This week wasn't the best of weeks for me, I just felt like there was a whole lot going on. I had many moments of just wanting to scream and being thrown on some island just so I can F5 myself. By the way, wouldn't it be awesome if we could just hit a button and just refresh our lives? Ok maybe not, because I know my own button will be broken by now.
My name is taynement and I am a comparer. It's not like I don't know any better because I do and I will be the first to give advice to people not to compare, but I have a chronic disease of constantly comparing myself to others and what makes it worse is I always see myself on the worse side of it all. I don't know why I always feel the other person is smarter, richer, skinnier (this one is true sha lol), prettier, *insert whatever else*. Like, I am smarter than this right? (or maybe not). I know all that glitters isn't gold and I know it is not a healthy thing to do but I can't help myself even when I see it sinks me deeper into a hole. My last bout of comparison, has me in a funk because I got to see and hear about two people who found their talent and started their own business and seem to be doing well and I am just like what do I have to offer? Why can't I start my own business? I can't even think of what I could do. It's not even like I am earning the big bucks my mates are earning. I am about to get my MBA and I am still waiting and wondering to see what that even means, having an MBA. And then this feeling of not being good enough, is making me eat away myself into oblivion. Blah! I really should stop. Anyways, hopefully I am just PMSing and I am talking out my ass. Just got done with two exams this week, one step closer to graduation. Hope you guys have a wonderful week ahead. Cheers.