Hello my little bloglettes, how are you all doing? Hope everyone is doing well and hanging in there in this journey called life. I had a good weekend myself. Finally and for the first time ever, I got to visit California, specifically Los Angeles. I happened to find a cheap ticket earlier in the year, chose a random date and bought it. It was a chilled trip compared to my other trips, no clubbing or wilding out. I went sight seeing by myself, saw the Walk of Fame, the Chinese Theater, Saddle Ranch (they film a reality show about it on Vh1). Drove around The Grove, Laurel Canyon, Sunset Blvd et al. While walking around, I ran into a Top Chef tour thingie and got to see Jaimie and Antonia. My coworker was nice enough to enter me to see a Jay Leno taping and I got selected, so many frustrated GPS and Cali traffic moments later I made it into the (freezing) studio. Jay Leno looks just like he does on TV. Josh Duhamel is just as gorgeous in person and so is Jill Scott. Anthony Hamilton is just as...homeless looking and short. Man, they make you do a lot of clapping, I felt like either the applause screen was flashing or the hype man was signaling the audience to clap every second.
Met up with ShadeNonconform, who suggested an Ethiopian restaurant that was pretty good. Tried a brunch place that served the most AMAZING red velvet pancakes, had those with 2 glasses of Cranberry Buzzes (Cranberry juice + Champagne)and I was a bit buzzed. Went to the Santa Monica Pier/Beach. I love the beach, played a bit in the water, took a long walk. It was nice. Hit up a dessert shop that stays open late. Funny, how I always wanted to live there, but I don't think I want to anymore. Bits of the place reminded me of being on the Island in Lagos.
Anyways, to make sense of the title of my blog, this trip came at a good time cuz I hadn't been in a good head space for about a week or so before I left. I had some time to think over my "vacay" and sort some things out. While I am a work in progress, like everyone else, one of the things I realized is that one of the hardest things for me is being vulnerable. I have had a variation of this convo with two of my friends - where I thought I was carefree and let it all hang out but as one of them pointed out, anytime I let it out, it took a lot of prodding on their part. Hmm, the dictionary defines vulnerable as capable of being physically or emotionally wounded. So logically, maybe it's a fear of being emotionally wounded? I have no clue because I can't tell you why it is so. The closest I can come up with is I think I just got so used to reigning my emotions in and keeping it lock tight, combined with having difficulty expressing it.
Blah who knows, I know some may think that some things I say on here show that I can be vulnerable and that's true but trust me I still keep it rather surface on here lol. My final question is, Do you think being vulnerable is a behavioral trait or something inspired by the company around you?i.e your friends/partner etc.
Hope everyone has a great week ahead. Monday just likes to sneak up on us sha. I am lying in my room practically naked because it looks like the vents in my room aren't working and it's so hot. I'm gonna attempt to sleep, I say attempt because sleep is hit or miss with me and try to start my week of right with positive vibes. Yeehaw! lol
Enjoy the song I stole my title from Frank Ocean - The Hardest Thing