This isn't going to be a long post, just wanted to get something out. I had no intention of blogging tonight but I just watched "Bethenny Ever After" and there's a scene where she is in therapy discussing her non relationship with her dad and her mom and I got that "feeling" I usually get when I watch stuff that pertains to non existent parent relationship.
As some of you may know, I have an almost non existent relationship with my dad, so it's hard for me to put that "feeling" in words. That's not the point of my post though, I think part of what comes with that feeling is a little resentment at not being able to talk about it. You know you hear about people who are labeled "the one with daddy issues" and you don't want to be that girl who blames everything in their life on their absent father and yea I agree with that, you shape your own life, you deal with the cards you are dealt with and try to move past it. The fact is, having an absentee father is part of my reality, it has shaped some of what I am today. I have done the best I can to not let it control my life. Have I done the best job? I don't know. Sometimes I do want to yell at people who have no idea when they casually throw out the "you have to just get over it" It's like, am I supposed to act like this never happened? Do I just keep going on suppressing thoughts and feelings? I don't know the answer but for the most part that's what I do, mostly because I am just really conscious of what I mentioned above - I don't want to be that girl, so even when I might just be venting, I'd feel like I was whining. Every now and then, I have those moments where I think about it, but for the most part, I am in a good place and I have reached a point where I can sincerely say I am good.
Anyhue, it really could be a lot worse and I am okay really. Before you guys flood the comment box with condolence sounding messages lol. Let me emphasize that I am okay oh!It was just a thought I had and felt the need to write about it. Hope y'all had a wonderful Monday. I sho' did thanks to Charlie Sheen and his numerous interviews. Oh did anyone catch the dry ass Oscars? I should do a write up on that. Laters!
PS Forgive my sucky title. I couldn't think of anything.